BDD :c
Although, this is the only picture of me that I’ve ever ever ever ever liked.
i wish i was as skeletal and gorgeous as the girls that get posted on tumblr, and get reblogged religiously. why can’t i be a tumblr sweetheart whose face and bones and beauty litter the tumblr community?
think it’s about time for another bath in boiling hot water. bubble bubble boil toil trouble bubbbbble.
I feel like I have lost all nerves in my body - like there is only bone. I do not know how to react. It’s as if I’ve forgotten. I feel empty.
My boyfriend (whom I love truly and madly and deeply) had been asking me to be healthier and to start eating again.
I did.
Now I gained weight and my confidence level is that of a leper.
I need to start not eating again.
“Another cup of coffee, Another cigarette.
I’m still lonesome, walking these desolated streets at night.
I forgot my home, my place in the world,
And I can only think of the past.
Those blackened nights where I trembled every time we touched,
I wanted that feeling to stay with me forever.
But just like sadness, peace never lasts long,
It disappears once the wind changes direction.”